Every summer, for twenty years—my age now—my family returned to Beaches 20. The rituals never changed: the long drive with the windows down, the first glimpse of the water that made the car erupt in cheers, the race to claim the best spot near the jetty. And always, Uncle Chester was already there, sitting in his low canvas chair, a thermos of coffee at his feet, watching the waves like a man reading scripture. He never swam. “I’ve done my swimming,” he’d say, which we took as a reference to the war. Instead, he taught us to read the beach: the way the tide sculpted the shore into crescent ripples, the names of shorebirds (sanderlings, willets, the imperious great blue heron), and the art of finding a perfect skipping stone. He showed us that a beach is not a static place but a verb—a constant act of erosion and deposition, of loss and gift.
The last summer I saw Uncle Chester at Beaches 20, I was nineteen. He was eighty-three. The cottage had been sold that spring—his knees could no longer manage the dune stairs—but he insisted on one more visit. “Just for the day,” he said. We drove down together, just the two of us, in his rattling Ford pickup. The beach was empty except for a single family building a sandcastle far down the shore. Uncle Chester sat in his chair, and I sat beside him. For a long time, neither of us spoke. Then he pointed to the horizon and said, “You see how the light lies flat on the water? That’s the hour when the dead come back.” I thought he was being poetic. He was not. “My brother,” he said. “My first dog. My best friend from the war. And soon, me. But you—you keep coming back here. Promise me.” Uncle Chester Us Beaches 20
As the years passed, the “us” in “Uncle Chester, Us, and Beaches 20” began to change. Cousins grew too cool for family vacations. Grandparents stopped coming. My own parents, once young and laughing in the surf, began to move more slowly, preferring the shade of an umbrella to the shock of the waves. But I never missed a summer. And Uncle Chester never changed—or so I told myself. In truth, he was changing the way the bluff behind his cottage was changing: imperceptibly, then all at once. His hands, always calloused, began to shake when he poured his coffee. His stories, once crisp as a gull’s cry, looped and wandered. Every summer, for twenty years—my age now—my family
Beaches 20 was not a resort. There were no boardwalks, no neon signs, no arcades throwing pixelated light onto rain-slicked pavement. Instead, there were miles of gray-gold sand, interrupted only by drifts of seaweed and the occasional horseshoe crab shell, upturned like a helmet from a forgotten war. The water was bracingly cold even in July. Fog could roll in by lunchtime and stay until supper, muffling the world into a white cocoon. Yet it was ours. Uncle Chester guarded it with a quiet ferocity. “You don’t tame a beach,” he’d say, squinting into the horizon. “You borrow it for a while. Then you give it back.” He never swam
In the arithmetic of the heart, twenty is the number of years it took me to realize that Uncle Chester was not teaching us about beaches at all. He was teaching us about time—how to stand before its vast, indifferent ocean and not look away. How to borrow a stretch of shore, love it fiercely, and then, when your knees give out, hand it to the next person who will sit in the canvas chair and watch the waves.
Uncle Chester is gone. The “us” has scattered to cities and suburbs, to jobs and new families. Even the old marker post was finally uprooted by a nor’easter three years ago. But Beaches 20 remains. The tide still turns. The heron still stands one-legged in the shallows. And when I close my eyes, I can still hear Uncle Chester’s gravelly voice, not telling me what to do, but simply saying: Look. Look how the light moves. Look how the sand holds your footprint for just a moment, then lets it go. That’s enough. That’s everything.
I promised.
