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The poet paused, and took a sip of his wine. He looked around the room, and his eyes met mine. I smiled, and he smiled back, a small, tired smile. Then he went on.

The room was dark. The house was silent. My wife was breathing softly beside me. And I lay there, listening to the sound of her breath, and I thought about the dream. I thought about the field of wildflowers, and the sun, and the woman with her hand outstretched. And I knew that I would never see her again. I knew that she was gone, that she had never been there at all, that she was just a story I had told myself in the dark. And I knew that this was the truth. This was the only truth there was. Role Models

“That I used to be young,” he said. “And that I used to believe in things. Now I’m old, and I don’t believe in anything. Not in God, not in love, not in art, not in myself. I don’t even believe in the truth. I just tell stories.” The poet paused, and took a sip of his wine

The poet stopped again, and this time he did not go on. He looked into his glass, as if the wine held a vision, and then he looked up and said, “I have spent my entire life trying to get that innocence back. And I have failed.” Then he went on

I left the party early. I drove home through the dark streets, past the houses with their lighted windows, past the trees with their bare branches, past the stars with their cold, distant light. I parked the car in the driveway, and I sat there for a long time, looking at my house. The lights were off. My wife and children were asleep. The dog was asleep. The cat was asleep. Everything was quiet. Everything was still. And I thought, This is my life. This is the only life I will ever have. And I felt nothing. Not sadness, not joy, not gratitude, not regret. Just nothing. A great, empty, peaceful nothing.