You're interested in David Foster Wallace's work, specifically his short story "Little Expressionless Animals". Here's some information:

"Little Expressionless Animals" is a short story by American author David Foster Wallace, first published in 1990 in The Paris Review. The story is included in his short story collection "Oblivion" (2004), although it was initially published in a different collection, "Girl with Curious Hair" (1989) in some countries.

The story revolves around an unnamed narrator who reflects on his relationships and experiences with women, particularly his complicated and often disturbing interactions with a series of girlfriends. The narrative jumps back and forth in time, exploring themes of alienation, intimacy, and disconnection.